Friday, March 22, 2013

Problem

I got a message about my race that I was not really all white.  It says French and Dutch.  What is wrong with the Spanish?  I mean, there is something wrong with someone of each race.  That's not technically my race, but maybe you've seen my other blogs.  I just didn't know what to say otherwise, my ideal race?  Maybe, I should start a new blog?  This one's doing good, just don't like the picture.>

What should I do?

I kinda don't feel like going to the mall nor to the movies, but I would see Oz, the Great and Powerful.  My mom is gonna come get me.  I'd have to take the bus, but I'm really, really tired.  I have theater homework, I know Acting 1, just a Midterm journal however and supposedly redoing something I don't know about, also to memorize a rhyme for Tuesday for Voice for the Actor.  However, Ginny might tell me to leave.  I told the counselor I was going.  I'm withdrawing from Weight Training, sometime, and I'm telling someone to take the hold off my record because I know it could happen.  I bet Ginny knew this, and I bet she didn't decide herself.

Only Attractive Blondes

I found that attractive brunettes aren't considered white.

Tweens

What do you think about tweens always saying oh you can't do this you can't do that?  It's like they all want a 1950 father.

Bratty Children

What do you think of mature adults with unattractive children, like the old paintings and photos?  Why do they all seem that way?

Problem

Why are people acting so tacky and like what they do doesn't matter?  Stop telling me I do that.

Funny

So, you don't want me to have fun in Orlando.  Too bad, people are beating me up, telling me I am nothing.

Problem

So, you made your kids trashy and won't accept non-trashy kids, no one will care about you.

Problem

Spam Attack - Dirty Associations from a Nigger

Issue

So, you think I came as a shitty brunette, some fantasy for nigger parents to get it over with, a sacrificial lamb?

Watcha think

of like Ginny m********** thinking of how cool her kids will be if they were born when she was 40?

So

Painted my Nails

Ugh

I'm so tired and have to take a bus somewhere.  Why didn't my dad get sushi?

How I'm Doing

My face feels so infested from skipping a shower 2 days in a row.  I have 2 huge pimples on my nose.  I wanted to use a pore strip, dreamed I did.  I just washed my face, put moisturizer on it, pimple cream, and chapstick.  So, I'm eating.  I had 2 Hot Pockets, no sushi, and am making I think Angel Hair paasts

Problem

I keep always hearing annoying clicks, and now my nose feels dumb.  Go away you nigger.

Problem

I'm annoyed, I'm not babyish in a bad way, but these greasy, square, kinda too thin men keep going around presenting Ginny as a tacky *** lover.

Dream

My favorite part was when I was dancing, just realized now I looked a bit like Ginny and how I looked when I was in her class, like I was in the mysterious Winter Park or Alatmonte Springs, like I was involved in something on TV, like "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," in a dark, secluded place with 2 rooms and a mirror.  I had my bangs, my face kinda rounded, like I was a ghost, someone's mother, visiting from the grave.  Like, the sides of my face were tucked in in a triangular shape outlining a dying heart.  My bangs made me look a certain way, like my eyes were pursed or something.  I was doing ballet moves, like a real ballerina, like dipping and sorta turning, and it was just a big deal, did it for maybe 15 seconds.  There was this sorta milky, thin strain of background music playing, simple music, and I was singing in a low, dipping voice, "My .. heart .. wants to .. Beat .. "  What happened before was I easily conjured up a tall thin girl wtih dark hair, milky arms, and Ginny was dancing with her, holding her from the back, in the other room.  I seemed like Audrey Hepburn, an old ballerina from Florida who had dreams.  I seemed just to be a moving thing with no voice.  Previously back in my dreams, I thought I was gonna sign up to do gymnastics on a team every day for 2-3 hours.  So, next, after awhile, I became small with just like black netting for clothes, like a leotard, you know like the idea of an animated bat ghost.  I was waltzing around like a Disney Haunted Mansion with Ginny and it was like she was carrying me, I was short, like maybe around her shoulders or a little more, and I just imagined this person like shoving me around, carrying me through.. and then I guess the dream stopped and I was sad.

Things that happened otherwise, my mom went to supposedly this dirty place like a mental hospital and said hi to a lady with light brown hair and bangs pursed we passed up twice with 2 little dark, Chinese girls and some others, like maybe a man around 35-40, eating at a table with cushioned chares facing one another, benches.  So, I went in a bed, wanted food, and was thinking why don't I think about if in class Ginny picked me up as an example!  =D  Then, she appeared and was acting like sorta a tacky Spanish lady and was holding me awhile and we went through to the other scene.  For awhile, she was walking with me as tall as her, feels more like Ellen DeGeneres.  I also dreamed something and then that she was hurt and her heart became small like mine in her body, ready to be torn out.  So, what was I gonna say?  I forget!  I might think of it, later.  Oh yes, she hugged me, I thought for some reason I think of now her private being like an urchin or something.  She was like swaying me in the dancing scene, like I was shorter and smaller than her.  Ah, yes, and I compared myself to the lanky girl, and we found my chest and torso actually were milky and sucked in, like a button.  I just figured I was shorter.  I probably had an inverted diamond want in my look.  So, when I imagined being hugged, I didn't feel much, and it was like I was skinny and a big shorter but an adult and she was like more strong and successful and was worried, but you know really she was not too small but seemed small with me.

It's hard to remember the rest, now.  :|

So, as the dream went on, I have dreams of me locked in as a mover with music coming on that I supposedly was singing.  It's like I was dead and raised from the grave.  It was some sad thing that never could be, and in my doing the right thing was being picked at.>

Bed

Must lie down, hope I make it to the bathroom..  On my walk, well.. got tired and lay down, feel emtpy like a GUMMI GUMMI GUMMI GUMMI GUMMI BEAR.  Please don't tell me, ooh, I've felt like a gummi bear, I just didn't feel like talking about it.  Or maybe I don't have any problems and don't need to tell you.

Problem

QUIT TELLING ME I'M A WORTHLESS CHINESE.  Quit bribing other nations.

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Problem

I just got a weird message.. hm, must be someone's fault.

DO YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT THE MESSAGE IS?

Update

Website - Treatises

Problem

I sense a sequence of attacks hovering in the air by Ellen DeGeneres to my teacher Ginny, just because she's copying Tim Burton's p****.  I mean, she is convinced I am a bad person, gives in to racism, pretty much stuck in a rut, I guess.  Anyway, I'm mad at anyone like that.  Everyone gets mad at me in some way, but the only person who seems human that I can think of who I know of who seems like a success story like in the arts like I've been told and felt in private is Renée Fleming.  Why in private do I always feel Ellen DeGeneres bitching because she has a mother fucking TV show?  She is flipping ideas of like if you think of 1 thing or any thing.  She is negative.  She promised to be good but is mean to me in private.  I hear clicks and every time I load the page I think she said something.  Can someone stop it?  I already asked.  When I see her on TV, I am convinced she does this.  Please have her stop telling everyone to die because they didn't watch her show.  She doesn't seem to know TV too well, herself.. so I won't believe it.  I didn't appreciate being insulted for saying something @ Renée Fleming.  What?  It sounds too complicated, and you think it was used against her?  No, it was just because I said it.  She has a thing for me like Tim Burton.  Tim Burton said I was perfect except not all white.  It's because I am never mean.  You all are like making me feel guilty for wanting to feel good and for my celestial accomplishments, in the classic arts and complex ways of feeling.  You just tell me you're not interested because my mom is Chinese and my dad isn't..  Also, why do people in Louisiana act racist against people who think about being cool rather than racist and cool?  Why are they like on top sometimes?  You don't even know my race unless I tell you.  You think you know in some way.  Stop acting gay around me, I can be somebody and still be attractive.  }:|

Got Back

So, I threw away all the garbage and recycled all my drink bottles - still have some caps.  I have to like put away some things, more laundry.  What else?  Neaten up some things..  See if I can rearrange some things.  This is really stupid.  I'm taking more medicine, need to vaccuum.

So, I stopped.  I saw something on the floor, small, oval-ish, reddish brown.  I saw it crumble.  I left the house, and my dad flipped me off in his tone but acted like he didn't and I kinda left in a mean way but not like loud.  I just felt bad and it happened.  I didn't say yes I want to talk to you.  I was just mad knew that I wasn't safe.

Thursday, March 21, 2013

New Video of Me


Almost Done, leaving soon

YouTube

done

Mobile

Problem

Stop loading the page like Ellen DeGeneres is a nigger.  It's hurting me and making me mad.  I should corner you and **** you.

Problem

I'm being spammed.

Question

So, I'm supposedy **** and artistic and romantic, which come hand in hand.  However, I'm nice and Ginny isn't.

Funny

So, dunno what you know, but I found something amusing.. maybe 1st you get it out for fun and then you might go wacko.  What I did actually was 1st I told the truth and then I "let it spill."  }:]  So, what's happenin'?  :|-

So

What do you think about Ginny's 2-sided dishonest personality?  No one gives a shit about kids with older parents who moved to Florida.

Facebook

(Facebook Like of photography company) (by girl from Slidell, Amber Bruce Miranda..)

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  • Chelsea Botticelli oh, we have to pay for it? I wish I could..

  • Deep Roots at Home You do NOT have to pay anything...it is only for donations if you can help!

  • Kerrye Rogers Dawson You don't have to pay to sign the petition.

  • Christina Barrett Why do you care?

  • Christina Barrett What are you trying to say?

  • Facebook Post

    To: girl in Slidell who's sang sing age 8, like me, part Jewish, last name Romano



  • Christina Barrett I have my own dreams and standards. }:] I don't dislike Sherlock.
  • New Video of Me

    me calling @ Ginny

    YouTube

    E-Mail

    Please answer or I will tell the dean of the school, with whom I've spoken, and I will continue to seek counseling about Ginny in the Arts & Entertainment, with someone I know from Florida.  I will sue the school for the humiliation and possibly get Ginny fired for lying about a student and putting them through counseling with you.

    Facebook Posts

    link

    That makes me happy with myself. Cute photo.

    "7 hours ago near Metairie, LA via mobile
    Seeking a personal assistant. Must be able to understand all ideas that exist in the crawl space of my mind, work only for payment in sarcasm, and the pure satisfaction of spending time with yours truly. Aah what a beautifully layered joke."



  • Christina Barrett I need to get out.
  • Problem

    People correct Ellen DeGeneres for torturing nice people, and she does something back, would make fun of me for adding "that's bad," even.

    Facebook

    Ray Stroud New music please Kate

    Leash

    You can say for fun oh I'm a person I've lived in 1 city my whole life, but you can't say other people aren't people.  }:|

    Facebook Post

    I just got told I did something and can't return to Ginny's classes, until they let me know. I e-mailed and called to contact right away or I will sue.

    So, apparently, there's something wrong with Ginny. I've talked to her outside of class and said I didn't like her class.

    Oh, and I am returning to class. Just decided not to continue Weight Training, didn't like the hw.

    E-Mail

    I'm going back to the theater courses, my grade depends on it and I have a right because I didn't do anything and I will sue you.  When will you let me return?  Answer.  I am not listening.

    Checking

    my school e-mail..

    Problem

    It's not normal to keep thinking Ellen DeGeneres farts insults against people who are younger than her.  **** her!  Oh, if I say why I said that she'll get mad.  Hmph, why can't I just post online and not have attractive people sever their sorta communication towards me?

    Problem

    Stop pretending you are my mom as a person and nitpicking at me so much when you bother me.  I'M GONNA **** YOU I CAN HAVE REACTIONS IN PRIVATE AND NOT BE INFLUENCED BY THE WAY YOU MAKE MY COMPUTER LOAD AND THE WAY YOU PUT CLICKS IN MY ROOM.

    Just Woke Up

    So much to talk about, so been in bed apparently for like what 12 hours?

    So, I dreamed I was in a shop, the whole time felt like I was being held by a dead baby Ginny.  I was with my dad.  I was looking at food, remember seeing the pizza shop.  Thin slices, good and gooey, something I'd had before.  Then, I ended up gettinga  buckeye and fudge brownie covered in chocolate for like $4.  I was asking the price, like my dad asked, kinda in a sweet fashion I didn't hear well like my mom.  He left after I got them.

    So, in bed, I remember I finally thought of how maybe they will just not let me register at Valencia, that I had to write something out for today.  I finally was unable to continue feeling anymore, in a way.

    I also thought about how some parents have bad kids and how they're mean, forget what about-

    Not sure what else..  :/  Just kinda upset about the meeting, I guess, and something else.. don't remember what.. maybe my dad, though.  Also, my opinion is that Tim Burton "used" me.  I just keep seeing him show up with some insult and having nothing to say.  No one believes he was hypnotized by me nor any individual other than Johnny Depp, like under the influence.  Everyone knows I'm just a good person to Tim Burton and to Johnny Depp a cool person but ½ Chinese + importantly possibly part Native American and Germanic Jewish.

    You can't just poop off my dignity after my life became an experiment.  I will **** you.

    E-Mail

    I cannot make it, I am sick.  Also, I scheduled at appointment @ 11 I cannot make.  What did you send me this, too?  I didn't do anything wrong.  The class tends to watch me, it seems, and all annoy me at, like, desire.  The teacher, also, is loony @ Orlando.  I am upset at this great inconvenience you have given me.  I'll have you know I'm withdrawing from Weight Training for several reasons: hw, not being worth it, keeping me awake.  Can you reschedule the hearing?  You only told me yesterday, and I do not regularly check my Atlas.  PLEASE TAKE THE HOLD OFF MY RECORD SO I CAN REGISTER FOR CLASSES IN THE SUMMER.

    This teacher is lying about me.  You have no proof of what she has said.  Please reschedule our meeting for a future date.  If you do not remove my hold, I will not be able to register for classes....  I'm not really going to, anyway.

    I know the teacher displays favoritism and makes you feel guilty for wanting to come to her class for her as a teacher...  Today, because of her, I was really hurt and called the police.  So, I cannot see you today.

    I'll have you know I never said anything to anyone, but students hinted racial slurs at me, often.  I know other teachers are fed up with it, and so is she, but I see she reported me again- well, maybe not, you didn't tell me what she said..  Why don't you believe I never used any words against anyone?  It's very clear that she discriminates against me racially.  She never addressed any of my behavior.  Can you tell me what she told you?

    So, reschedule our meeting because I took an adult gymnastics class and feel very beat up and am withdrawing from Weight Training so I am maybe more awake for her classes-  My argument is that I did nothing wrong, anything you have said I haven't done wrong..

    Getting Ready

    So, you just don't like anyone?

    Issue

    Why does Ellen say yea teens|young people are supposed to be tacky?  Get outta mah face, stop getting mad at me for watching you.

    Problem

    Stop going into things I've done I didn't like.

    Issue

    So, why did my mom need to meet my dad, we all know that.  My mom is more from Florida than his sisters..

    Update

    Old Text Box 

    Race: White|Asian
    Age: 26
    Hometown: Florida & New Orleans
    College: Cleveland & DC

    Ethnicities: French, German, Swiss, English, Irish, Polish
    Hair: Brunette
    Eyes: Brown|Green
    Skin: White

    Fall 2013:
    Dialects 2nd + Stage Movement
    College Path:
    Political Science Pre-Law
    Minor: Criminal Justice
    Language

    Problem

    Why is Ellen mad at me all the time?  Who can I talk to?  It's all about her.

    Problem

    Just **** yourself.  So what, if I like my mom going to Pennsylvania?  It was better for me.  I already said, I mean it shouldn't matter, I can't think about it.  Please go away, I cannot think about it anymore..

    Problem

    I don't care about Tim Burton and Ginny being cool from Pennsylvania but "noncomforming."

    Problem

    I just went to the bathroom, my dad was up early again.. and I heard a voice, a gruff, rough man.  I don't want to see how he opens the door each time I go.

    Problem

    So, you just picking on me because my dad is biologically from Pennsylvania but not all and not from a major city nor he nor near ancestors from Southern but not like 1800.

    Leave Me Alone

    Quit coming to me telling me I didn't let you feel pleasure.

    What about this old question-

    So, you think it's not right not to be European, but you don't fit the description.

    I Saw the Sign

    I really feel too tired to put up a sign higher on the door, just want a nice life, will stay home and clean my room-

    Problem

    My dad isn't nice, just "has something."  Like, he doesn't believe in touching a problem.

    Call

    I said hello, heard a click, and they hung up.  Loading the videos.  Just told them the road I'm on.  They transferred me to an adult male.

    On the Phone

    I'm on the phone with the police, was transferred to non-emergency, want to get to school to a meeting but probably won't go..

    Problem

    I already told you I liked to be a good, cool person.

    Problem

    So, my mom ruined the world.  She is threatening to hurt Ginny.  Why did she talk to my therapist?  That was a good long talk.  It was my dad.  **** him.  He's seeing his mom this weekend.

    Problem

    Stop not giving me attention.

    Problem

    Stop kidding with my in my private, Ginny.

    Problem

    I told you to stop communicating to me in my room.  I thought someone did it for me

    Problem

    So, why every time I see my dad do I feel so bad?

    Problem

    Ginny, go away, stop having *** with my dad.  Why am I getting these after messages like you're some gay genius who just wants me to not be happy?  Because I go out, and I don't find anything okay.  I'm not just alone in my room.  There's something wrong with my dad.  I don't want to think about him.  It's not just a single thought.  He does something to me, and I don't accept it, and the idea seems to plow through.  I'm not gonna wait to have Ginny make me feel better, and I'm not gonna just be with my dad.

    Problem

    Why are you affected by my dad?  I just got an image of some short, fat person squirming uncontrollably in the air in a tower.  I've been getting this image more and more.  What disturbed me was I thought of the person being given an o*****.  It offended me.  My dad always used to let me tease, but he's been mean, lately.  I thought my life was an experiment, didn't tell him because he knows, and I failed college.  I don't have to tell him, and it wasn't on purpose.  I think he knows, too, so, I mean it's not like I have to say I'm a nigger and have to submit to him because I'm not a nigger.  What bothered me was that you are selfish and from Orlando or L.A. or something and you think that it matters what my dad says.  I don't care.  I don't want to talk to him.  Not in that way.  Why won't he stop?  He's a *beep*  Please don't sit there and care I said that, it's my blog.  You're all just niggers and want to be attractive like me, but you're shit and don't listen.  I'm gonna **** you, take that.  Why are you telling me my dad is gay?  No one gives a fuck about him.  Just talk to me, you gay niggers.  WHAT THE HELL IS THE PROBLEM.  Everyone I see wants to know about my dad.  I didn't do anything to him.  What, did my mom go around the city?  She said I can't go to the bar.  I guess I'll go.  Don't ask about my mom, you niggers, or I'll ask "what" yours just said.  Your parents like me.  You say they don't.  I guess I'm the good sibling.  Ooh, Ginny, got something to say about that.  You're a bad person.  Take that.  Explain.  I'm not looking for no one, obviously.  What did I seem to come to you with?  Wanting to meet a person in person?  Gonna get all gay about it?  Maybe, I'll just go back to bed.  I SAID SHUT UP.  I SAID I DON'T BELIEVE YOU.  Get your nigger dad to m********* you.  HEAR THAT.  I DON'T BELIEVE YOU.  I SAID STOP.  I SAID STOP.  DO SOMETHING.  Stop talking to me in my room meanly.  Stop fighting me, you niggers.

    So

    I'm off to Valencia, don't feel like sleeping, so.  I could cancel the meeting, but it might be important.  He's not making me feel better and isn't like smart like a teacher.

    Safety Net

    What about "do you want to" is so bad?  You think I can't be who I want?  What's wrong, something about how I look?

    Question

    Do you want ***y people to talk to 1 another if they are older than you?  Why be so gay about it?  I know what you're thinking, you won't be nice.  Maybe, people just have lots of beans to spill.  That's a funny thought, find lots of attractive people or maybe 2 people you knew and see what happens if you have 2 people like that rather than like loads of success stories.  *puff of smoke fills the room*

    Funny

    I'm so awake from weight training.

    What's wrong with seeing Ginny?  I like her.  Why do you act like she's too good for me?  Maybe, that's not the problem.  See, what are you supposed to do, anyway?  You always say it's about liking your work and doing arts in the community and moreover anyone willing to say classical is good and that most people don't even care about classical, don't even understand music, good music.  Music today is like all country isn't it?  I am fortunate to have known folk and sacred music, however, so.  Also, country music is gay.  Must be people who have a health problem.  I mean, who likes being white in that way that much?

    About the internet.  There is nothing wrong with making a blog.  I mean, you should network, find the stuff you believe in and maybe see what's going on in the world.

    Plan

    So, I think I will go to a bar or casino, but my mom said no, so that means I might not be in the bar dancing so long so late, like after midnight.. you know?  It's a place to meet people, not to like say I don't like my parents, I'm too old, I am..I need to socialize, and that doesn't happen @ school|work.  :|  She doesn't want me home after 11.  About going to the mall, I won't take your crap that maybe you say it's okay to go to the mall but maybe it says you think you're something instead of just sitting at home doing nothing.  I'll see you not connect with anyone, at all.

    And another thing, if you think you're whiter than Ellen DeGeneres is your problem.  What am I supposed to know?  I mean my mom is also not technically Caucasian or whatever.  It's the same thing.  I'm not like her.  I forget how she offended me.  Oh yes, she claims to pay attention to me and wants me to say no I don't want you to and that I can't get mad because she has to get mad at me, like for being poor.  Poor and unfortunate.  I mean, supposedly, if they know I thought it in private or something or can tell something about what I say, then they like make it their point for a long time.  Then, like, there's no one there, there's no Mickey Mouse, there's no Walt Disney.

    Also, there's lots of funny ideas going on with Ginny, but I don't hurt her.  She just like expects me to be good at something else, but that's not so.... I know.  So, there are 2 or 3 problems.  She's not nice, and other people did something that caused a problem.  I don't know how you would make 4 people say something.  Also, I mean, no one is the same age, so this makes sense to me.  0;)

    So-

    So, you don't act like it's embarrassing for kids with younger dads and Late Boom moms to like you .. and you won't answer do they get to live like older generations, like the porn bunny MySpace gen..

    E-Mail

    Turtleneck

    Can you get 2, only $5 each, @ Target, this morning, so I may get it by Monday or possibly Wednesday and can wear it to school so I don't have to wear something else: link.

    *o|\~ sing

    Problem

    So, I was bothered, but I was thinking of how maybe Ginny cares about people who aren't good and are just racist offspring.

    I just found out she doesn't give a shit.  She is offended I go to Valencia all day in anticipation of her class.

    Facebook Post

    from before 2 girl from old ballet, daughter of aunt..

    Open Gym and Kids Gymnastics are fun.

    Update

    New Text Box

    Will She-

    Will Ginny ever get up again?  Maybe, she wants peo-ple-

    I'm thinking of withdrawing.

    From Weight Training.  I don't want to do a sport next semester, neither.  I dunno..  I did just want to stay home.  I decided not to do yoga in the morning.  I mean, it was a good experience, I just don't like the hw.  ':{  If you want to talk about it technically, it's about waking up + I don't want to do it later.  ':{  There's lots of fun things to do here in Orlando, but gotta go down the list, I guess.  I mean, I just can't take putting a lot into like more than 1 activity.  I mean, I do singing and piano, still.  I mean, I'll always probably like classical music.  I mean, I like sorta artsy music.  I'm really not a theater major.  I just am looking for teachers I like and was gonna do another activity, but you know maybe at Seminole in the Spring.  I was gonna go to college up north by my relatives for a semester, but I don't feel like it.  I was gonna go for music.  I guess I'm not ready and they don't want to see me that much, so I won't go.  I have nowhere to go and no one to see.  Maybe, I should work on being famous for something.  I like posting online.  I wanted to get in Logan's Run, a sorta under the wing project of something I like.  They claim that a star role is for anyone, but I know it's a test, now.  Also, about singing, that's what the internet's for, the classical music.  I am interested in social activism and research, but there's nothing to research.  We have the internet and can do anything.  Everything else is just formal.  I'm glad to know some people in my life who are reachable:

    (1) Ginny
    (2) Tim Burton
    (3) *Johnny Depp*
    (4) my old organ teacher|choir director, Margaret, Dr Campo
    (5) my old music teachers
    (6) my old theater teacher
    (7) a voice professor
    (8) Renée Fleming
    (9) Órla Karron Fallon

    There are so many nice people in Orlando.  I was just put off by someone in Slidell, where I used to live.  So, I dunno-

    Facebook Post

    Open Gym and Kids Gymnastics are fun.

    E-Mail

    Gymnastics

    Do you offer anything: that I can take classes with the kids, go to an open gym that's not on Friday|Tu|Th night, or take private lessons ... age 26?  Also, if not, do you know anywhere in Orlando that offers this?  Thanks.  I took adult classes and found it wasn't very careful nor very fun.  It was also expensive.  Teen classes weren't good, neither.  I've also been following ballet here.