Problem

I sense a sequence of attacks hovering in the air by Ellen DeGeneres to my teacher Ginny, just because she's copying Tim Burton's p****.  I mean, she is convinced I am a bad person, gives in to racism, pretty much stuck in a rut, I guess.  Anyway, I'm mad at anyone like that.  Everyone gets mad at me in some way, but the only person who seems human that I can think of who I know of who seems like a success story like in the arts like I've been told and felt in private is Renée Fleming.  Why in private do I always feel Ellen DeGeneres bitching because she has a mother fucking TV show?  She is flipping ideas of like if you think of 1 thing or any thing.  She is negative.  She promised to be good but is mean to me in private.  I hear clicks and every time I load the page I think she said something.  Can someone stop it?  I already asked.  When I see her on TV, I am convinced she does this.  Please have her stop telling everyone to die because they didn't watch her show.  She doesn't seem to know TV too well, herself.. so I won't believe it.  I didn't appreciate being insulted for saying something @ Renée Fleming.  What?  It sounds too complicated, and you think it was used against her?  No, it was just because I said it.  She has a thing for me like Tim Burton.  Tim Burton said I was perfect except not all white.  It's because I am never mean.  You all are like making me feel guilty for wanting to feel good and for my celestial accomplishments, in the classic arts and complex ways of feeling.  You just tell me you're not interested because my mom is Chinese and my dad isn't..  Also, why do people in Louisiana act racist against people who think about being cool rather than racist and cool?  Why are they like on top sometimes?  You don't even know my race unless I tell you.  You think you know in some way.  Stop acting gay around me, I can be somebody and still be attractive.  }:|

Just Woke Up

So much to talk about, so been in bed apparently for like what 12 hours?

So, I dreamed I was in a shop, the whole time felt like I was being held by a dead baby Ginny.  I was with my dad.  I was looking at food, remember seeing the pizza shop.  Thin slices, good and gooey, something I'd had before.  Then, I ended up gettinga  buckeye and fudge brownie covered in chocolate for like $4.  I was asking the price, like my dad asked, kinda in a sweet fashion I didn't hear well like my mom.  He left after I got them.

So, in bed, I remember I finally thought of how maybe they will just not let me register at Valencia, that I had to write something out for today.  I finally was unable to continue feeling anymore, in a way.

I also thought about how some parents have bad kids and how they're mean, forget what about-

Not sure what else..  :/  Just kinda upset about the meeting, I guess, and something else.. don't remember what.. maybe my dad, though.  Also, my opinion is that Tim Burton "used" me.  I just keep seeing him show up with some insult and having nothing to say.  No one believes he was hypnotized by me nor any individual other than Johnny Depp, like under the influence.  Everyone knows I'm just a good person to Tim Burton and to Johnny Depp a cool person but ½ Chinese + importantly possibly part Native American and Germanic Jewish.

You can't just poop off my dignity after my life became an experiment.  I will **** you.

Problem

I don't care about Tim Burton and Ginny being cool from Pennsylvania but "noncomforming."

I'm thinking of withdrawing.

From Weight Training.  I don't want to do a sport next semester, neither.  I dunno..  I did just want to stay home.  I decided not to do yoga in the morning.  I mean, it was a good experience, I just don't like the hw.  ':{  If you want to talk about it technically, it's about waking up + I don't want to do it later.  ':{  There's lots of fun things to do here in Orlando, but gotta go down the list, I guess.  I mean, I just can't take putting a lot into like more than 1 activity.  I mean, I do singing and piano, still.  I mean, I'll always probably like classical music.  I mean, I like sorta artsy music.  I'm really not a theater major.  I just am looking for teachers I like and was gonna do another activity, but you know maybe at Seminole in the Spring.  I was gonna go to college up north by my relatives for a semester, but I don't feel like it.  I was gonna go for music.  I guess I'm not ready and they don't want to see me that much, so I won't go.  I have nowhere to go and no one to see.  Maybe, I should work on being famous for something.  I like posting online.  I wanted to get in Logan's Run, a sorta under the wing project of something I like.  They claim that a star role is for anyone, but I know it's a test, now.  Also, about singing, that's what the internet's for, the classical music.  I am interested in social activism and research, but there's nothing to research.  We have the internet and can do anything.  Everything else is just formal.  I'm glad to know some people in my life who are reachable:

(1) Ginny
(2) Tim Burton
(3) *Johnny Depp*
(4) my old organ teacher|choir director, Margaret, Dr Campo
(5) my old music teachers
(6) my old theater teacher
(7) a voice professor
(8) Renée Fleming
(9) Órla Karron Fallon

There are so many nice people in Orlando.  I was just put off by someone in Slidell, where I used to live.  So, I dunno-

Issue

So, Ellen DeGeneres thinks you did something wrong and holds off.  I know I didn't do anything wrong in her book.  She'll just say I called Tim Burton's daughter the N word.  There was a reason, and the reason wasn't bad.  In fact, I am in an experiment and have an uncomfortable life, as well.  I kinda made it, though.  I'm not interested in why.  It's just not right.  Did I foul anyone seriously?  No.  Am I a bad person who always does bad things programmed?  No.  Is everyone?  Well, yea, they all tell me I'm not white, basically.  They don't know much about me, otherwise.  Then, they even get mad at me for having such a good mom.