Problem

I got a message about my race that I was not really all white.  It says French and Dutch.  What is wrong with the Spanish?  I mean, there is something wrong with someone of each race.  That's not technically my race, but maybe you've seen my other blogs.  I just didn't know what to say otherwise, my ideal race?  Maybe, I should start a new blog?  This one's doing good, just don't like the picture.>

Only Attractive Blondes

I found that attractive brunettes aren't considered white.

Problem

Spam Attack - Dirty Associations from a Nigger

Issue

So, you think I came as a shitty brunette, some fantasy for nigger parents to get it over with, a sacrificial lamb?

Problem

I keep always hearing annoying clicks, and now my nose feels dumb.  Go away you nigger.

Problem

QUIT TELLING ME I'M A WORTHLESS CHINESE.  Quit bribing other nations.

Problem

I sense a sequence of attacks hovering in the air by Ellen DeGeneres to my teacher Ginny, just because she's copying Tim Burton's p****.  I mean, she is convinced I am a bad person, gives in to racism, pretty much stuck in a rut, I guess.  Anyway, I'm mad at anyone like that.  Everyone gets mad at me in some way, but the only person who seems human that I can think of who I know of who seems like a success story like in the arts like I've been told and felt in private is Renée Fleming.  Why in private do I always feel Ellen DeGeneres bitching because she has a mother fucking TV show?  She is flipping ideas of like if you think of 1 thing or any thing.  She is negative.  She promised to be good but is mean to me in private.  I hear clicks and every time I load the page I think she said something.  Can someone stop it?  I already asked.  When I see her on TV, I am convinced she does this.  Please have her stop telling everyone to die because they didn't watch her show.  She doesn't seem to know TV too well, herself.. so I won't believe it.  I didn't appreciate being insulted for saying something @ Renée Fleming.  What?  It sounds too complicated, and you think it was used against her?  No, it was just because I said it.  She has a thing for me like Tim Burton.  Tim Burton said I was perfect except not all white.  It's because I am never mean.  You all are like making me feel guilty for wanting to feel good and for my celestial accomplishments, in the classic arts and complex ways of feeling.  You just tell me you're not interested because my mom is Chinese and my dad isn't..  Also, why do people in Louisiana act racist against people who think about being cool rather than racist and cool?  Why are they like on top sometimes?  You don't even know my race unless I tell you.  You think you know in some way.  Stop acting gay around me, I can be somebody and still be attractive.  }:|

Problem

Stop loading the page like Ellen DeGeneres is a nigger.  It's hurting me and making me mad.  I should corner you and **** you.

Just Woke Up

So much to talk about, so been in bed apparently for like what 12 hours?

So, I dreamed I was in a shop, the whole time felt like I was being held by a dead baby Ginny.  I was with my dad.  I was looking at food, remember seeing the pizza shop.  Thin slices, good and gooey, something I'd had before.  Then, I ended up gettinga  buckeye and fudge brownie covered in chocolate for like $4.  I was asking the price, like my dad asked, kinda in a sweet fashion I didn't hear well like my mom.  He left after I got them.

So, in bed, I remember I finally thought of how maybe they will just not let me register at Valencia, that I had to write something out for today.  I finally was unable to continue feeling anymore, in a way.

I also thought about how some parents have bad kids and how they're mean, forget what about-

Not sure what else..  :/  Just kinda upset about the meeting, I guess, and something else.. don't remember what.. maybe my dad, though.  Also, my opinion is that Tim Burton "used" me.  I just keep seeing him show up with some insult and having nothing to say.  No one believes he was hypnotized by me nor any individual other than Johnny Depp, like under the influence.  Everyone knows I'm just a good person to Tim Burton and to Johnny Depp a cool person but ½ Chinese + importantly possibly part Native American and Germanic Jewish.

You can't just poop off my dignity after my life became an experiment.  I will **** you.

What about this old question-

So, you think it's not right not to be European, but you don't fit the description.

Problem

Why are you affected by my dad?  I just got an image of some short, fat person squirming uncontrollably in the air in a tower.  I've been getting this image more and more.  What disturbed me was I thought of the person being given an o*****.  It offended me.  My dad always used to let me tease, but he's been mean, lately.  I thought my life was an experiment, didn't tell him because he knows, and I failed college.  I don't have to tell him, and it wasn't on purpose.  I think he knows, too, so, I mean it's not like I have to say I'm a nigger and have to submit to him because I'm not a nigger.  What bothered me was that you are selfish and from Orlando or L.A. or something and you think that it matters what my dad says.  I don't care.  I don't want to talk to him.  Not in that way.  Why won't he stop?  He's a *beep*  Please don't sit there and care I said that, it's my blog.  You're all just niggers and want to be attractive like me, but you're shit and don't listen.  I'm gonna **** you, take that.  Why are you telling me my dad is gay?  No one gives a fuck about him.  Just talk to me, you gay niggers.  WHAT THE HELL IS THE PROBLEM.  Everyone I see wants to know about my dad.  I didn't do anything to him.  What, did my mom go around the city?  She said I can't go to the bar.  I guess I'll go.  Don't ask about my mom, you niggers, or I'll ask "what" yours just said.  Your parents like me.  You say they don't.  I guess I'm the good sibling.  Ooh, Ginny, got something to say about that.  You're a bad person.  Take that.  Explain.  I'm not looking for no one, obviously.  What did I seem to come to you with?  Wanting to meet a person in person?  Gonna get all gay about it?  Maybe, I'll just go back to bed.  I SAID SHUT UP.  I SAID I DON'T BELIEVE YOU.  Get your nigger dad to m********* you.  HEAR THAT.  I DON'T BELIEVE YOU.  I SAID STOP.  I SAID STOP.  DO SOMETHING.  Stop talking to me in my room meanly.  Stop fighting me, you niggers.

Funny

I'm so awake from weight training.

What's wrong with seeing Ginny?  I like her.  Why do you act like she's too good for me?  Maybe, that's not the problem.  See, what are you supposed to do, anyway?  You always say it's about liking your work and doing arts in the community and moreover anyone willing to say classical is good and that most people don't even care about classical, don't even understand music, good music.  Music today is like all country isn't it?  I am fortunate to have known folk and sacred music, however, so.  Also, country music is gay.  Must be people who have a health problem.  I mean, who likes being white in that way that much?

About the internet.  There is nothing wrong with making a blog.  I mean, you should network, find the stuff you believe in and maybe see what's going on in the world.

Plan

So, I think I will go to a bar or casino, but my mom said no, so that means I might not be in the bar dancing so long so late, like after midnight.. you know?  It's a place to meet people, not to like say I don't like my parents, I'm too old, I am..I need to socialize, and that doesn't happen @ school|work.  :|  She doesn't want me home after 11.  About going to the mall, I won't take your crap that maybe you say it's okay to go to the mall but maybe it says you think you're something instead of just sitting at home doing nothing.  I'll see you not connect with anyone, at all.

And another thing, if you think you're whiter than Ellen DeGeneres is your problem.  What am I supposed to know?  I mean my mom is also not technically Caucasian or whatever.  It's the same thing.  I'm not like her.  I forget how she offended me.  Oh yes, she claims to pay attention to me and wants me to say no I don't want you to and that I can't get mad because she has to get mad at me, like for being poor.  Poor and unfortunate.  I mean, supposedly, if they know I thought it in private or something or can tell something about what I say, then they like make it their point for a long time.  Then, like, there's no one there, there's no Mickey Mouse, there's no Walt Disney.

Also, there's lots of funny ideas going on with Ginny, but I don't hurt her.  She just like expects me to be good at something else, but that's not so.... I know.  So, there are 2 or 3 problems.  She's not nice, and other people did something that caused a problem.  I don't know how you would make 4 people say something.  Also, I mean, no one is the same age, so this makes sense to me.  0;)

Issue

So, Ellen DeGeneres thinks you did something wrong and holds off.  I know I didn't do anything wrong in her book.  She'll just say I called Tim Burton's daughter the N word.  There was a reason, and the reason wasn't bad.  In fact, I am in an experiment and have an uncomfortable life, as well.  I kinda made it, though.  I'm not interested in why.  It's just not right.  Did I foul anyone seriously?  No.  Am I a bad person who always does bad things programmed?  No.  Is everyone?  Well, yea, they all tell me I'm not white, basically.  They don't know much about me, otherwise.  Then, they even get mad at me for having such a good mom.